I usually sit in thought a lot because sometimes I find myself jaded by the ways of the world and the behaviors of humans. As a writer and someone who studied human behaviors and mindsets, I still find myself in deep thought because I feel like there’s questions that I have that are still unanswered. Being a daughter, a sister, a cousin, a niece, an aunt, a friend and a girlfriend means I play a role in some other humans life and vice versa, but I find that sometimes it’s exhausting. It’s exhausting because sometimes I lack on fulfilling the duties of those roles and so do those who play a role in my life.
However, I realize how much I do try, maybe not my best but I try and sometimes find myself feeling bad when I do fail at playing my role. I understand how tedious it can get with juggling multiple roles, but all I ever ask for is SUPPORT, nothing more, nothing less because I know how it feels to go through a journey in your life with minimal support from those closest to you. I learned throughout my years on this imperfect earth that those closest to you are usually not your biggest fans for various reasons, such as their inability to be there for you the way you would like them too and then there are some individuals who don’t really want to see you succeed because they can’t handle your success.
Another reason is because we are humans with flaws, no matter how perfect we strive to be, it’s impossible. Once you learn that, it hurts less when you are looking for those closest to you to be there and they’re not. Then you may find that your biggest support comes from someone who barely even knows you, think about celebrities and who their biggest fans are. Humans who barely even know them, yet they Stan for them, they support them to the fullest, but yet fail at supporting their own family and friends. Hard pill to swallow but it’s reality, only thing you can do is keep striving for you and connecting with those who do want to support you because there’s someone who could come along and be your BeyHive...
Have you ever experienced moments where you became frustrated with the lack of support from your closest friends or family? How did you handle that situation?