Me being a person who in my opinion, is very mindful of my feelings and thoughts, I still struggle to remain in the present because my brain has its moments when it wants to wander off into another world. That is when I find myself having to fight those negative thoughts that seemed to pull me from the present moment. Yesterday , I had one of those moments during the Vent and Vibe event I attended with a group of like-minded ladies. I could feel myself thinking negatively as my mind was racing with so many thoughts, which resulted in me doubting that I belonged in that room because I was simply not living in the present.
Yes, I was there physically, but mentally, my mind was elsewhere being preoccupied with thoughts that kept me feeling further isolated from life and further isolated from who I was in the present. Therefore, it further caused me to feel more disconnected from the women than I liked to be. It may not have came off that way to the other women because I forced myself to interact and show a little vulnerability, so that I wouldn’t completely allow myself to shut down in that moment. It’s crazy because in that moment, I was really going through an emotional warfare in a room surrounded by beautiful, strong and ambitious women of color who most likely had no idea that I was fighting this internal battle right amongst them.
I say all of this to say, it is so important to be present and mindful of your emotions because you never know how your spirit can affect someone else’s. You never know how your spirit can affect opportunities to build and connect with other people. It’s normal to experience negative thoughts, but you must not live in those thoughts because that is when you stunt your growth and miss out on valuable opportunities. That is also when you sway further away from the women you are and the women you are striving to be.
Yesterday, if I would have completely lived in the negative thoughts that I was fighting in my head, I would have left the event early and not had the opportunity to connect with at least one person who is doing the things that I am aspiring to do with my business. Yes, there were a million thoughts running through my head that I had to continually fight, while trying to remain present, I still commend myself for not allowing my feelings to consume me.
Yes, I kept thinking to myself, “Damn most of these women here are married, but I’m not. "Most of these women here have accomplished businesses, I don’t". "Most of these women seem so strong and confident, but I’m not". I just had to tell myself, “Lisa, stop with this negative thinking and comparing yourself to others, you are great”! Even though, I felt less than great in that moment, I had to keep speaking to myself to keep from missing out on an opportunity to connect with someone who understands my struggles, which was my whole purpose of pushing myself to go to the event. I had a need to connect with other like-minded women because somewhere inside I must have felt that I was worthy enough to be in that room or I would have let my thoughts punk me out of having a seat at the table.
Can you think of a time when you had to really push yourself to be in the moment when you were fighting negative thoughts in your mind? How did you overcome those negative thoughts? #MaskOffMondays #FreeYourselfFromYourself #LisaReneSpeaks #MondayMotivation #FaceyaFears #TakeOffThatImFineAttire